So restless to meet the ocean
I only glimpse through my world
No thought given to
Every drop splatters with screams
Laughing and joking
As they should be
I’m close to the beginning
Dreamt about it a hundred times over
My welcome- That cold, complete embrace
Ever so longed;
Infinite in time and capacity
Like a compass giving directions,
An undefined force leads me to where I belong
The journey seems longer
Panic sets in
The laugh of drops dies crying; within
The dreams sink in unknown depths; within
For the first time, it feels tiring
And suddenly I break into veins of chaos
Scavenging for the real end
My waters are led to an unnatural course
I’m holding on to see what happens next but,
No, this cannot be it!
Can there be a worse curse than
To be stuck mid-way
And not dry out?
When did I bring myself to this state?
Why doesn’t this moment pass like all others?
I think of the fountainhead-
The beginning of me
It continues to pump hope
Pushing me ahead
Melting in more force into my being
I enter thirsty lands
They’re happy to have me
And maybe, I enjoy the distraction too
But I know: this is not where I belong,
I just know!
It makes me restless
I’ve been cheated off my dream
To what seemed like it could be only mine
Rightfully mine, and only mine.
Aaaaargh! In pain, I want to scream
I am incapable of destroying myself
So, I punish others for what I lost
Innocent spectators drown in turbulent waters
They gasp as I twist and turn with rage
Everyone will be made to pay
As time passes, I mature
Into a sparkling, deep, abundant, flowing river
I’m calmer but incomplete
The journey was enriching
But it’s still unfulfilled
I sigh. Flowing dissatisfied to the end
I feel a pull
It’s the ocean calling out for me
Waving back, smiling proudly
Yes, I’ve made it! I’ve reached!
Overjoyed, I dash forward
Showering water in gratitude
Every wave cheering me on
Oh! This is better than what I’ve dreamed
I crash into the vast ocean
Only to be bound by so much love
I’ve waited for so long..
God, so long!
And in a moment, it’s all over.
I am here!